Monday, November 27, 2006

Life is a roller coaster

Life is a roller coaster!! One minute I'm up… and the next I come plummeting down to the ground at speeds deemed impossible by physicists.

I have always been thrilled at not knowing what's around the next corner. The thrill of not knowing what I'm gonna knock into - maybe a closed door, maybe a broom or maybe just fall into a bush with thorns for good measure. And I've had the same outlook for larger things in life – school courses, career, love-life, a larger bush.

In research experiments, I was always told – change one variable at a time. That's what makes the change easy to understand and control. But at this point in my life, suddenly EVERYTHING is changing and all of these aspects HAVE to work out just right. I'm taking all the tests at the same time - and this time around I didn't get any preparatory leave and no one's offering grace marks!

I claim to be busy. And, I am. But, I think my mind is busier than my brain. I analyze, brood, dream, repent, anticipate and blame myself. When I'm done with that, I find someone else to blame.

Be brave is what they say. Remain Seated. Keep arms and legs inside the car at all times. And that's what I'm gonna do. Hoping that patience and perseverance are in for the ride too!